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Coming Out of the Kinky Closet

So although this particular piece of art is not specifically about my kink or my sexuality, it is alive with sex and pulsing with vigor. It is relevant as fuck because I channeled it this year, in the midst of my sexual self-discovery. It came to me and I wrote it in about 10 minutes which is kind of

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This was my FIRST deliberate picture taken FOR Fetlife.  Pretty tame, but I felt sexy as fuck.

Where my REAL writing has been.

I’ve been writing on Fetlife- a fetish social media site for almost a year now.  https://fetlife.com/users/8079687  It’s probably the best and most revolutionary writing of my life. I have been excavating myself, discovering who I am and I’m very proud of the work I’ve done there. I have created over 110 pieces of writing, 8 videos and

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My Greatest Shame or Where The Rubber Meets the Motherfocking Road – Part 3

When we last left the little redheaded girl,  she had just become a Jesus Freak, moved in with a total stranger 3000 miles away from home, quit her job and joined a church that became nationally, notoriously anti-gay. I’ll let that sink in a minute. I honestly don’t remember many actual conversations about the actual morality of being gay.

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My Greatest Shame or Where The Rubber Meets the Motherf*cking Road – Part 2

When we last left the little redheaded girl, she had just purchased a plane ticket to British Columbia to be with Liam – a man she had met and fucked for one night -sans orgasm on either side- and spent many hours talking on the phone with. One conversation over the Christmas holidays was particularly

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Paula Howley ex-stripper, speaker, public speaking coach for kids, kids speaking expert, confidence and compassion coach

Synthesizing an Unmistakable Voice

Srinivas Rao sent me an advanced copy of his upcoming book, “Unmistakable”.  I’m sure he sent out dozens of unproofed copies but still,  to be on his radar is pretty cool.  I’m reading it now, slowly.  One section at a time and yes, it resonates.  I’ve had 3 epiphanies just in the past hour. Ephinany

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Paula Howley ex stripper, speaker, author, public speaking teache

Coming out of the Stripper Closet

People sometimes tell me how brave they think I am and I laugh inside my head because I know that fear is a long time dance partner of mine.  The only reason I do ‘brave’ things is because I can’t live with the alternative.  I don’t think there’s anything brave about that, it’s just practical.

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To Be or Not to Be – Regardless, the Sauce is Everywhere

They tell me I’ve been writing this stripper memoir for 50 days straight now.  And that is why my mind feels like a  massive plate of spaghetti- a mountain of random thoughts askew, piled up on top of each other, some even stuck together- the occasional meatball to chew on for a while and feel

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