Ever been afraid they'd all find out your secret? Me too. But not anymore.

From 1986-2003 I was a Canadian stripper. From 2003-2014, a Jesus Freak. Now I'm just Paula. Maybe we can figure out who we are together.

Paula Howley ex stripper, speaker, author, public speaking teache

Coming out of the Stripper Closet

People sometimes tell me how brave they think I am and I laugh inside my head because I know that fear is a long time dance partner of mine.  The only reason I do ‘brave’ things is because I can’t live with the alternative.  I don’t think there’s anything brave about that, it’s just practical.

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Where’ve you been?

Well, I’ve been trying to un-school my daughter, battling shingles, re-imagining my marriage with my husband, reading, be-ing. I’m going inside.  Inside without an agenda except to explore and chronicle. Stuff I’m reading is helping me re-member myself and discern what is important to me.  I read Tori Amos’ biography.  She is important to me

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Paula Howley stripper memoir

To Be or Not to Be – Regardless, the Sauce is Everywhere

They tell me I’ve been writing this stripper memoir for 50 days straight now.  And that is why my mind feels like a  massive plate of spaghetti- a mountain of random thoughts askew, piled up on top of each other, some even stuck together- the occasional meatball to chew on for a while and feel

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Ankle Deep in Brain Dust…plus, a story!

I’ve been writing every day for the past 2 weeks- a minimum of 888 words a day so I’ve got a chunk of something under my belt now.  The bad news is 98.5% of it is absolute crap that I’d be embarrassed to show my 11th grade English teacher.  The good news is 1.5% of

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Paula Howley, stripper, exotic dancer, Paula Scott

Official Skank

Tomorrow is the day of reckoning – I start writing the memoir.  So, if you were ever a jerk to me, watch out.  And if I was ever a jerk to you, I promise you your day of reckoning is coming too. I paid a business coach a thousand bucks to hold me accountable for this.

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I am Her and She was Me

So, I actually hired a very interesting business coach today who is going to whip my ass for 69 days while I get into a pattern of writing the stripper memoir I have been talking about writing for damned close to 20 years. A 20 year wait.  Man, that even sounds embarrassing.  But don’t forget

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