Ever been afraid they'd all find out your secret? Me too. But not anymore.

From 1986-2003 I was a Canadian stripper. From 2003-2014, a Jesus Freak. Now I'm just Paula. Maybe we can figure out who we are together.

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My Greatest Shame or Where The Rubber Meets the Motherfocking Road – Part 3

When we last left the little redheaded girl,  she had just become a Jesus Freak, moved in with a total stranger 3000 miles away from home, quit her job and joined a church that became nationally, notoriously anti-gay. I’ll let that sink in a minute. I honestly don’t remember many actual conversations about the actual morality of being gay.

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My Greatest Shame or Where The Rubber Meets the Motherf*cking Road – Part 2

When we last left the little redheaded girl, she had just purchased a plane ticket to British Columbia to be with Liam – a man she had met and fucked for one night -sans orgasm on either side- and spent many hours talking on the phone with. One conversation over the Christmas holidays was particularly

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What do sex workers have in common with children?

Marginalized voices and vulnerable bodies. Who better then, to teach your kids how to walk through their fear and into their confidence? My former speaking coach, Rich Hopkins and I had a lovely quick chat about, kids, speaking, stripping and winning anyway! Rich was a really important part of my spiritual evolution.  For a couple

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Both and

So I still don’t post much here because the truth of the matter is I’m still kind of scared. Scared of being burned. But, no more. The fear is NOT gone but feel the fear and do it anyway, amirite? Y’all know I’m a teacher of children right? And somehow female sexuality can not be

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World Champs

I rejoined Toastmasters a couple of months ago for completely social reasons.  I have no desire to write speeches right now but I’m having a hell of a lot of fun with the group. Tonight I chaired the meeting and I chose the theme of World Champions because the Toastmasters World Championship of Public Speaking

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